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Saturday, November 26, 2005

When your lonely heart breaks
Don't sit counting your mistakes
Don't be waiting
for love to come back
Don't be wastin' time
Don't be lost in crime
When your lonely heart breaks
When your lonely heart breaks.

i will not be waiting for love to come back . i see the truth now . love was never meant for me . it`s never worked out . why should it work out now ? i was living in a fairytale but this is reality . all i want is someone who won`t always give me my way . someone who`s passionate . someone who means what he does . someone who`s willing to fight for me.

oh wait . that`s right . fairytales don`t exist. and princes don`t exist in real life .

me , bitter ?

it`s all about the context, honey .

i knew what i was getting into . i knew why i didn`t want to fall in love or make myself so vulnerable . i thought i learnt that lesson long ago . i guess i was weak .

i shall not be making that mistake again .

written with a pen,
sealed with a kiss.
if you`re still willing to try,
please answer this :
do you love me or do you not?
you told me once but i forgot .
so tell me now and tell me true ,
so i may again soar on eagle`s wings...

maybe in the first place i should have told you this .

Don`t .
don`t care so much for me,
i may get used to it.

don`t come so close to me,
i may not be able to detatch myself from it.

don`t put so much faith in me,
i may not be able to handle it.

don`t touch me the way you do,
i may not be able to get over it.

don`t become a part of my life,
cos without you i won`t be able to live it.

don`t make me fall for you,
i may not be able to fall out of it.

don`t come into my life,
if you`re leaving me

don`t give me the hope
that you`re going to stay.
cos love is an emotion
i won`t be able to hide.

when love isn`t reciprocated with love
it hurts deep inside
don`t start something
that i won`t be able to end.

don`t make me belive
you could be more than a friend

cos at the end of it all
i don`t want to hear you say

that "i`m sorry.
i never felt that way."

but it`s too late now , isn`t it ? don`t get me wrong . those memories were very real . i knew what i risked the day we went into a relationship . it`s up to you to decide what ends this relationship . feelings dying , or circumstance . maybe to you it was all just abit of fun. who knows ?

and yes did i mention i was bitter ?

x[clare]x ~~pouring out~~ her unconfused soul @ 6:32 PM